Sitting at my desk staring at my lappy don know doing wat... being sleepless for about a month... Last few week when i sleep at 4plus in the morning i go schhol i will feel bloody restless...now i hardly even feel tired, freaking awake..... Term test next week and my FOM test is tomorrow.. haven even study anything...
Went for training today.. i think i stress my back thigh muscle, now feel the pain and cannot even walk normally. Doing alot of kick together, today coach show me wat a combo should be, so i was holding the punching bag he gave me two punch and one kick, i just cannot control my balance and flew to oneside. I know it sound like in the movie but u reaaly got to feel it personally and u know u really don want to get kick by him......after that went out to meet pet, robin, nigel, sheena and chan for coffee talk... guess our coffee talk will be lesser next year when nigel go into army and pet giving birth. Feels kind of weird....funny and spooky..... feel so happy for nigel, finally got into COMMANDO.... Wish u luck bro and i know u can do it one.....
Sometime i been thinking about my future, will i be doing wat i want or just doing something just to survive in this world, every year goes by and my dream of becoming a pilot seems getting weaker and weaker.. Haiz... should have follow my friend footstep, study hard for O and than after o go to Aus for training.... Just found out my friend is a junior officer with a degree now and he's starting his work with Qantas airline in a month times. I'm not saying that i have the money to go or wat... but i know if i make up my mind and know wat i want rather than being a idiot, my parent will sure find way for me to go to Aus for training. 2008 is coming to an end and i'm going 21 next year, i just don feel good, reaching 21 and never acheive anything. Not a good year for me also. Now i need to finish my poly which is next next year where i turn 22 and than go army come out already 24,25.... Than when i go Aus for training to become a pilot by the time i'm a junior officer i'm already 28. Sometime when i look in to the mirror i just want to break it... Haiz...
Now i just want a good long sleep.... going to mug for term test already...
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